Charlie Oliver

its been so long since i've been ok this...i guess that having to get the things ready for the baby is taking up a lot of my time. the bump is HUGE and i've only got 6 weeks to go. i cant wait.
im getting more and more tired these days, so whenever i do actually come home all i wanna do is sleep. i spend 99% of my time with Martin. who is wayy nice to me...getting waitered on hand and foot...something im still getting used to.

gotta go sleep or i'll never get up...

-Gaby xx

nearly 5 months...

bump is getting really really big, and things with martin have gotten sorted out long ago, we're off to Venice for valentines day...at least that's the plan... its been so long since i last posted on here...to be honest with work and spending time with martin it has been a little busy, and because of the baby I'm not my usual self, full of energy and at every gig going...haven't been to a gig since last December i think...maybe November was the last one...cant remember.

anyhow, a few coming up that i have to go to...unfortunately when tbs are back i wont be able to see them...which sucks...

Anyhow, gotta run,

- Gaby xx

wonder where i'll be in just over 8 months

so erm...i just found out some really bad news, some bad news and some news.

Really bad news, my step brother is dying. hes got a matter of weeks to live, the cancer progressed from the stomach to the chest and meds arent working anymore. last week he was asked if he wanted to remain in hospital, or go home for his final days. i dont know what he chose.

Mel is in a pretty bad shape, and its reflecting on my mom and me too.

Bad news, Martin is a cheating idiot and i cannot trust him at all. i'm not taking any chances.

News. well...today i found out something, quite unexpected. im falling to pieces right now, but i gotta be strong about this.

im glad things for other people are looking up. glad that its working itself out. and thats for two people in particular. well 3.


well i jusy got a call from mel and Collin has been moved to a hospice. things arent looking too good right now.

im gonna go make a couple calls. tomorrow i need to have a serious talk with martin. tell him some developments that i've found out.

wish me luck, im really gonna need it.

- Gaby x

just to clear things up...

First of all...Who are you??
Go back and read things properly...when i said "his only friend" it said this:

"Myspace messages...being his only actual "friend" on his Made in hell clothing page."

meant on the 11th of july to the 12th of july...when i was the only person other than "Tom" on his friends list of his CLOTHING LINE.

seriously, why am i even bothering to do this? guess that i just really dont want to get people to think that im something that im not.

I never claimed to be a friend of Ian's...marely another person that goes to his gigs, and if you dont know who i am, have never met me or talked to me, dont fucking judge me (and yes you can talk to me on aim if really needed use this screen name... dunksbabycakes over my private one.) because i dont judge you, even if you are trying to start shit over the net.

if you want to have a valid discussion, involving people that are not bothered about what other people write about them, then leave the "*insert name here* doesnt even know you" or "why are you trying to pretend to be friends with someone that your not" out as i'm not gonna credit you one bit for dragging them into it. they have my myspace, they can say that they dont know me. but ask them to take a look at the profile, as names sometimes arent remembered (even if he knows my nickname 2 years after being told it the first time).

Whatever you do, DO NOT try make a fool of me as you will be proven wrong, i have no reason to write things that arent true, im not interested in the slightest bit of gossip because i know who he's dating, and has been for at least a year now. (i know who, i dont KNOW them).

drama around bands is inevitable, so leave me out of it when and where possible.
if you still have a problem at the end of the day im prepared to discuss things but i dont do it over websites.

anyway i gotta go.

- Gaby xx

fucking lies...

i hate the fact that i cant get hold of him right now, and havent been able to for basically the past 3 days...i tried calling, texting...nothing works.

things arent adding up...meetings over drinks...extremely late dinners...being so fucking cold...

guess what hunny, you know how you always say that you want this to last...

its over. for real.

yeah there is the fact that you might have genuine reasons for that, of which id want to have a serious look at.

you dont tell me that girls at your work have made a move on you...that gets to me majorly...

relationships...thank fuck i have no actual feelings appart from liking you as a person. thank fuck i dont love you, even if you love me.

i guess im free to do whatever i want tomorrow night...



i love going on tour... see people that i love hanging out with, watch them play, get drunk and take photos...and not much else really!!!

im off to sleep...got a ob interview tomorrow...hope i get it because im fucking bored not working!

-Gaby xx

3 words can change everything

take this however you want, could be either way.

friday night martin said those 3 words and i was well...lost for words, full of thoughts...

i am extremely tired right now...things in the past week have been moving at an extraordinary pace and im not sure i'll get used to it.

i had fun talking to some people over the week...
vinnie finally got in contact again which was nice, even though that might not have been the nicest circumstances why he called. however i do hope things work out for him.

im tired and sorting out my music, so im gonna make make a sick ass playlist for me to listen to when i go to sleep...which will be sometime very soon.

hope everyone had a good day.

it was sunny today. i saw tash and we went to croydon...those massage stools were funny as hell.

-Gaby xx

trust...

You need to earn it. Specially from me.
He is walking on a very thin line...any minute it can snap...so don't put any more stress on it. I feel smouldered by you, but at the same time I can't work out why you were so cold today. Have I really made the right choice??
Lets see if this relationship will survive another month...in which I will fall to pieces...and not because of you.

Saw kate today, was good! I missed the fatty <3

Off to sleep can barely keep my eyes open.

-Gaby x